Monday, November 24th, 2008...

Probably one of the hardest days I can really think of... I attended the service of a very special individual... whose courage, humor and warmth I shall always remember... He tragically passed away in the morning of Nov. 20th, and with it, left a void... I still am trying to come to terms with this reality... while ... I didn't cry so much at the service itself... afterwords, it all just caved in on me... I had to go to work at 4:00, and with all the recent stress that I had already gone through, and a severe lack of wanting to be there... I became increasingly more distressed, depressed... I had to get away, I wanted to get away... Despite the fact that I have so many happy memories with my friend... it still wasn't easy to wrap myself around these thoughts... I broke down... I won't lie, I bawled... I couldn't stop... Someone who I had known for a very long time was suddenly gone... like the grains of an hourglass descending into the abyss...

So... I was allowed to leave... I still was miserable... my friend, Zack came and got me and we hung out for a short time, I vented a little... telling him my thoughts and whatnot... I felt a little better... slightly... though I still linger to this melancholy sickness... simply, to me was not fair... someone like Noah... only 26 years old, with ... so much life and potential... be suddenly ripped out of all our lives... by the deceptive carnage that is cancer... I still miss him... and though the road ahead will be hard... I have to continue on... Living day to day... cherishing every moment... for they truly are special, and not to be taken lightly & valuing the friendships that you have, and paving the road for new ones... if Noah taught me anything, its that you have to live life to the fullest, no matter what and a willingness to love, he loved life, his friends, and family devotedly... and despite the results, cancer didn't beat Noah. He lived with it and never let it rule his life...

And so he lived... and shall continue to live, within the hearts and minds of all the lives he touched... for all his kindness and friendship... I want to thank Noah... for allowing me that privilege... I am eternally grateful. Rest in peace man... may we meet again someday...